What They Don't Know

Mara Berton is bisexual.
I knew that.  I knew it!
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Katie said she wants to go steady now, monogamy, the whole deal.
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Do I come off as being Bi?
~I miss John, sorta.  He's an asshole and has a small penis but he's nice to look at.
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Went out with Nick tonight.

Love me.
Want me.
Need me.

Never gonna happen.  Never will.  Can't no way.
Without a doubt.  It's never gonna go through.

I like this guy a lot, but I will never have him, not at least, I dont think.

Kyle.

I need you.  Ok, well maybe not need, but something like it.  I have to hold it in though, because I just don't have the guts to feel this way.  Maybe someday though, maybe then I can have you. 
That sunrise should have lasted forever, I wanted to every thought that came into your mind.

That was then, this is now.  You want to trust me but you don't know how.
That was her
THIS IS ME

1. Nick
2. Jeff
3. Keith
4. Justin
5. Clark
6. Licardo
7. Maynard
8. Ryker
9. Erik
10.  Nic
11. Zack
12. Katie


oy vey

those are all the ppl who i know of that like me

Familiar arms  he holds me in, that familar touch. The lifeless grasp of my hand, that I miss.  It's come back for a  moment.
When I got into it all, I had no idea it would wind up like this.  This being me having burned my bridges again, and not a single way to get back.

Hmm, that randomly came up as saved...I like it.  It's about John, isnt it?

I'm back with someone.  Someone awesome.

Wanna guess??

NICK LUTZ

No, I'm not kidding, I'm that awesome.  He's that awesome.  We're that awesome together.  I have gotten my baby back.  In just 11 days I will be seeing him and I cannot wait.  He is so awesome...and so mine.

Laura VanBuren is in Howell this week, and I am planning on hanging out with her.  Crazy?  Yes, I am, thank you. :)

I have a kitty now, named Baji.  He looks like Simba.  His name WAS Tuvok, but momma changed it.  Then it was Spicy Tuvok Taco....now its Baji :(
He's so cute though, I wish he wasnt nocturnal!!!!!

A slut popped my girly cherry.
Glad it's out of the way.
She kept asking me if I was sure it was my first time.
I'm sexually talented, yeh, i am.
John told me I was the best sex he ever had.
He's prolly lying as usual.  but I'm gonna take it.

I"M AWESOME YO

phosf8 and that food you dumped out
KitE GirL 06 dont tell me u ate it
phosf8 it landed on a plate and i umm...ate it

Oh, and he's back with Lauren.  He cheated on her yesterday, with me.  Whoops.  HAHAHAHAA

Wow, shit, Lauren made me laugh rly hard again yesterday.
Without even trying.
Right after John got done talking to his dad the phone rang again...it was Lauren.  She knows he sleeps during the day.
Well, she thought also he got hit by a car again....I guess she is only semi-literate b/c she was absolutely sure that I wrote to her that he got hit by a car again.  Umm...no i just make a joke reffering to the incident.  But it was funny to have her call in a panic.  VERY VERY FUNNY.  If I could, I would so have her do it again, just you know if I get bored.
They reashpahlted the street yesterday really really slowly and people thought that the construction people were done.  Yeah everyone's trapped indoors now, no car.  i mean we could all walk, but I really wanna go see John and mommy has to go to seminary.

Dry damned ashfult.  or however you spell it.  Whatever, I could care less about the spelling, and couldn't care more about the dryness.

John's ex, Lauren still talks to him.  i want that bitch to back the fuck up.  I do have a say in wether or not he talks to the nasty bitch.  I don't like her and he did ask me, and told me if I didnt want him talking to her he wouldn't.  Well, I tried coping with my jealousy and guess what?  I should have said NO, HELL NO.  I don't want him talking to an ex.  Fuck if he didn't want me talking to Nick Lutz I wouldn't.  But Lauren and JOhn broke up 2 months ago, I'm already the rebound and I dont need any problems, so NO HE CANT FUCKING TALK TO HER.  I already fucking hate exes to begin with, but if they just recently broke up hell no you cant.  I'm so discussing my staus as a rebound gf with him, that pisses me off too.